One whole year of ...

Love

The beginning of 2010

The beginning of this year started of with me doing my internship in the office called IDC located at Petaling Jaya. I tried looking for what I've always wanted to do but I failed hence, working at a place selected by UTAR. I would say that I did have a great time there although it was not what I've expected myself of doing. I get to meet new people, know more things from an entirely different industry and the list goes on. Even tough it is not what I've expected, I did enjoy every single moment of it!!

After my internship, I was on a trip with Dar and his friends to Langkawi.
The last time I remembered that place was 12 years ago when the island was still filled with mostly empty lands. The scenery, people, place of visit are all awesome ! The thing that was below my expectation is the Underwater World and also Laman Beras Terbakar ..
According to people who have been to the one in KLCC, they told me it was very much better ..
As for the Laman Beras Terbakar, who would have expected the place to be a housing area with a small little grassy place at the porch with a sign board saying "Beras Terbakar" and that's it?
Overall the trip was amazing and if I have the money next time, I would go snorkeling there !

Next trip would be Taiping and Penang which is coming up this Sunday! Wonders how is it going to be like!

After all these trips, I NEED A PART TIME JOB ! DESPERATELY !!! :(

Which is better ?

At first , I think that this is something nice because I find it nice when you can find 2 puzzles that

can match each other .. Then later I came across something else and I realized that was also not too bad ..

Because I am unsure of what I want ... Now I am confused ! I need help !

Puzzle pieces or ....

looks better ? o_O

*note: All pictures are taken from google

Comparison

Being compared by someone who is so close to you to someone who you hate so much .
How does it feel ?
I felt nothing but anger inside me .
Have you ever thought of how I felt before saying those words you said ?
Only when I told you then you realise .
Then after that you said everything was you fault that's why I am like that now .
What if I compare you to someone you dislike and hate so much and then later I tell you it is my fault that you act just like that person ?
How will you feel ?
Do you like that feeling ?
I can't tell how much of anger I have inside me now .
I don't feel like speaking to you .
Not even a word !

ARGHHH !!

Study Break !

I have a week of study break since my final week of the semester is over ..
However, I am too lazy to study !!
Is like after having such a busy 14 weeks of classes and now is the time to relax but you have to study for finals !
Anyways, I'll be sitting for 4 exams this semester ..

Pengajian Malaysia - 15th Sept (2pm)
Animation - 17th Sept (9am)
History of Art & Design 2 - 19th Sept (9am)
Digital Audio & Video - 24th Sept (2pm)

First paper on the 15th and I haven't started anything !
Except Kesan Perjanjian Inggeris Belanda which I read because of my assignment !
I am sooooooooooooooo LAZY !

FUUUhhhhh !

I've it wouldn't have been for you, I wouldn't have known her and found out so much ..
So I thank God for letting me know so much more things which you hid from me ! :D
Because you have hidden so many things from me, the first person that would lay their fist on you is not Kree or Vie ..
I would be proud to be the first ! :)
Come back to KL and you will get it ..
Or better yet when I see you that is what you get from me ..
A PUNCH NOT A SMILE !
BASTARD !

Whatever it is, I am happy that I have a new friend ! =D

Final Week Of My Year 2 Semester 2

Is the end of the semester and I have 3 assignments due on the same week !
2 Down !
1 more haven't even started !
God Bless meeeeeeeeeeeee !

Digital Imaging Assignment 3



p/s: I love my model ! XD

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I am so dead !

Yesterday and Today

Was sitting down at Chili's today with Mala, K-7 , Ezzy, Ezzy's Bf and Dar Dar after Kree left while Mala's daughters were having their fun time playing with their mother's scarf ..

We talked about a lot of things and then we came across one saying when a 2 person is in a relationship we must always learn how to give and take ..
I know saying it is easy but doing so is hard because everyone tends to want to have things their own way ..

At that point I thought about how things was for the past whereby I listen to that person and not myself every time which leads him stepping all over my head and beyond it ..
Then I was also thinking of how could I even tolerate it ?
I mean, for this current relationship .. I would listen to him at time but I also have my own opinion at the same time ..
How is it different now than before ? What makes it different this time ?

As for the other day, I was driving with Kree beside me and we were talking about something similar with what today's talk was about ..
She was telling me hers and I was telling her mine as how the past were ..
Not every past but just the recent one ..
It turn out that we both have the same kind of thinking ..
As in, is harder to trust people now as compared to before ..
Maybe the pain and heartache that was given by that one person will always remain as a scar that's why it is harder for me to believe in someone now ..
Maybe the pain and heartache that was given as a lesson to me so that I will thinking before believing in somebody ..

Until today afternoon, I still think about how things were if everything in the past didn't actually happen ..
If I were given the chance to choose it again, I would choose the same road that I've been through or else I wouldn't be able to meet such a wonderful person which I have in my life now who gives me 101% attention and make sure that everything is fine ..


Thanks Dar for being the one who;

• Cares so much ,
• Loves so much , and
  
• Gives so much !!

Thanks for being such a great person that you are to me ~

We come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly.

Pictures means A Thousand Words

Chocolate Lounge - One Utama
Chocolate Affairs & Chocolate Milk Shake

Dar and I
Note: The both of us and the sofa are all in red colour !

Up - 3D (Additional RM5)

YAY !

WEeeeee !
Since the bar list is out ~
I am on my Ponteng Spree !!


Monday

• Met Dar at 1pm
  
• Went and see a skin specialist doctor which cost me RM78 and a summon of RM15
• Went and had chicken rice for lunch
  
• Watched 'Aliens In The Attics' in Mid Valley
• Fetched Dar home

Tuesday

• Met Dar at 2.30pm
• Went to Jusco
• Had Nando's for lunch
• Fetched Dar home

Wednesday

• Stay at home and do nothing

Thursday

• Meeting Dar at 12pm
  
• Lunch
  
• Catching 'I Love Beth Cooper' at 1utama
• Sri Rampai pasar malam
  
• Dinner with Dar
• Fetch Dar home

Friday

• Meeting dar at about 4pm
• Dinner
• Catching 'Up' at 1utama
• Fetch Dar home

I can't ponteng on Thursday morning and Friday afternoon because I have something to show my lecturer ..
Ohya, and also cause it is a 100% coursework subject .. The bar list is not out till next week .. I think !


And oh ya,
I love what I am now !
And I am glad that I have it ! =D

14th August 2009

Went and catch a late night movie last week Friday cause I didn't have to work that night ..
Dar and I didn't plan what movie to watch so when we reach 1 Utama we were deciding on which movie to watch . Either Aliens In The Attics or On His Majesty's Secret Service ..
Basically, I didn't like the show ..
Is DAMN lame but everyone is laughing like as though it is very funny !
Dar told me "If I were to comment on this show I would say that I've wasted 11bucks and 2 hours watching this movie !"
But no matter how bad the movie was, I still enjoyed the day ..
Thankiewwww ~~~ * =)

Oh ya, I met Uree later after sending Dar home and she vomited somewhere in Bangsar before meeting me and after that she told me that she is afraid of RICE ! But the day after that was forced to eat rice cause YS tapao chicken rice .. Ekekekeke !

22nd July 2009, 2024

Why is it that every time something happens, you will be the one who will comfort me even when you are upset ?
I know I shouldn't act the way I did ..
I don't know why will I act that way ..
I always make you feel worst than how you felt earlier ..
Sometime I think that I never care about how you feel ..
All I care for was myself ..
Sometimes I feel that you care too much about me to the extend that you will not care about how you feel ..
Why is it always like that ?
Why do I always make matters worst for you ?
Sigh ..
Sometimes I just wish I am not as emotional as I am ..
Sometimes I just wish that I am not what I am ..
Sometimes I just wish I am more considerate ..
Sigh ..

Happy Birthday to me !!

I know I am suppose to blog about this a week ago .. But I was too busy with assignment, work and etc ..
Anyway , celebrated with someone special in the day and had dinner Kree, Apan & Nirmala ..
All I can say is that I enjoyed it very very much !
I get to spend time with YOU and also with my friend on the same day !
I still can't believe that you people can really talk to each other !
I AM HAPPY I AM HAPPY !
Can u see that I am HAPPY ? XD
Oh ya, not forgetting wonderful steamboat on Saturday with my family !
Was craving for tomyam steamboat for weeks !!

Chili's Mid Valley

Birthday Cake !

Kree and Apan

Mala - I don't have any other pictures of her :(

Dar : >.<" Me : :D

-12th of July 2009 -
I LOVE ALL OF YOU !! KEKEKE !

Putting the blame on someone else

As the tittle said , many people tend to put the blame on someone else when it was something that they did .

Even it is just something that you once said, but who knows it is clearly stated in someone's mind ..

I remember everything you told me the other night ..

That night was the night you told me that you are tired of trying because of distance and tired of trying because it is not worth trying anymore ..

It was then that I realise, no matter how hard I try things between you and me wouldn't change for any better ..

Now that I've learned to let go, you are the one who came back telling me like as though I was the one at fault ..

The one who brought us to an end was you ..

The one who told me that there is no use of trying is also you ..

Tell me what you are thinking would ya ?

Whatever it is , I am happier now ..

I will appreciate it .. Unlike you ..

谢谢

Baby，
Thanks for coming down all the way ..
I enjoyed spending my whole day with you ..
I do not know when will the next time be ..
But until the next time, remember what you've promised me k ?
Take care ..
I seriously hope that you'll consider whatever I told you today ..
Think of FACTS not EMOTIONS and not PEOPLE around you ..
Think of FUTURE and not PRESENT
Take everything into consideration
Please, I hope you really think about it ..

The Begining ? Or Ending ?

当我发觉到我们的感情变了的时候，我很伤心。
在那个时候，我真的不知道要怎么做然而我却把全部的错都怪在我自己。
有时候我真的觉得很想放弃全部然后离开。
我并不知道我几时对你的感觉变了。
应该是那时当你简讯我的时候说你生病了，我却不想回你的简讯。
自重那个时候，我终于可以做会我自己了。我不用再隐瞒我的感情了。
我也不用再弄你开心反而却让我难过。
我也不用再担心你在我的背后做些什么了.
不管未来发生什么事,我自能说我从来没后悔跟你在一起和给你一切我所拥有的。
谢谢你陪我我走到现在。

What Do You Do When ..

... you realized that your existence are no longer important ?
... the person who you care so much no longer tell you things like who he/she used to ?
... the person no longer care for you ?
... the person you care for makes you feel like he/she is taking you for granted ?
... you feel like giving up and then he/she gives you hope that things will be better ?
... you really want to be with that person and he ends up pushing you away ?
... you don't know what you mean to that person ?
... you feel that every thing that you do does not make he'she realized that you actually care more than any other people?

Will that person ever realize ?
Is that person sensitive enough to realize ?
What do I really mean to you ?

When things can no longer be the same, is giving up the best solution ?

Tagged by Andrew

T H E S E L F

[01] Name: Vanessa Low Sook Ping
[02] Nickname: Ping, Ah Ping, Ping Ping, Van
[03] Married: No
[04] Zodiac Sign: Cancer
[05] Gender: Female
[06] Age: 23
[07] High School: Assunta Secondary
[08] College: UTAR
[09] Height: Not Sure
[10] Weight: Not Sure
[11] Do you like yourself: Yeah .. But I do hate myself at times
[12] Piercings: 2 (left n right ears)
[13] Right or left: Left
[14] Are you a freak : Maybe ?
[15] Hair: Brown
[16] Skin: Yellow? Brown? =.="
[17] Allergic: Panadol
[18] What are you doing now: Using Adobe Illustrator to finish up my assignment
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: The same thing as I am doing now
[20] What will you do 10 years later: Working ?



T H E F A M I L Y

[21] Live with : Dad, Mum, Sis
[22] Siblings(included you): 2
[23] Eldest: ME
[24] Youngest: Sis
[25] Love/hate your family: Love but sometimes ... =)



T H E L O V E

[26] You found your another half: Yes
[27] If yes, who is he/she: Human
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be:
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: 2
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): zzzz!
[31] Anyone woo you before(0-100000): zzzz!
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: Nope.
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done:
[34] Ever argue with your other half: YES! SOOOO MANY TIMES
[35] You with your other half since: Last year
[36] Are you straight/Gay: Straight
[37] Reasons you love your other half: Everything except the temper and the i-don't-care attitude
[38] You and your other half in which stage: what stage ? -.-"
[39] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: =.=" what is with all the woo questions ?
[40] Ever think of marry he/she: yes.. no.. maybe .. yes.. no.. maybe..



T H E F R I E N D S

[41] Your first best friend: I don't know .. I think it was Pui See if I am not mistaken
[42] Your first enemy: I don't think she is my enemy.. I just don't like talking to her
[43] The friend you love the most: Kree Kree
[44] The enemy you hate the most(1only):
[45] Your most beautiful girl friend: ....
[46] Your most handsome guy friend: ....
[47] The kind of girl you hate the most: Those who don't like being themselves!
[48] The kind of boy you hate the most: two-timers
[49] You fall in love with your close friend before: Yeap
[50] Your best friend is your ex-lover: No
[51] If your friend backstabs you: Do you even call that a friend?
[52] If your friend betrays you: same as above
[53] If your friend woo your lover : same as above
[54] If your friend fall in love with you: depends
[55] If you fall in love with your best friend: depends

T H E S T U D I E S

[56] Are you a good student: Nope. More like last minute
[57] You always done your homeworks/assignments: yes. at the very last minute :)

[58] The teacher/tutor you love the most: Asir ! Funny guy !
[59] Always late to school/college: Sometimes
[60] Your class: Fun at times but noisy all the time
[61] You love your seniors: nop
[62] Senior who you love the most: ....
[63] Your classmates good/bad: Some of them .. not all
[64] Excellent result classmate: Actually .. I don't know .. Cha Fee maybe..
[65] Laziest classmate: Laziest ? I'll just keep this to myself just in case they read this




T H E P E O P L E

[66] Smart people : JOLYN !
[67] Stupid people : ....
[68] Good looking people: 234546578756534 people
[69] Ugly people: ....
[70] Funny people: Kree !
[71] Cute people: .... Cute means ugly but adorable ?
[72] Bad people:
[73] Honest people:
[74] Acting people: Yah .. One that I've just met about a year ago ..
[75] You are what kind of person: Emo type? LOL


T H E P R E F E R
[76] Lip or eyes: eyes
[77] Hugs or kisses: Kisses
[78] Shorter or taller: Taller
[79] hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous
[80] Nice stomach or nice arms: Arms
[81] Listener or talker: Listener
[82] Romantic or rich: Romantic
[83] Good husband or Good Father: Can I have both ?




T H E F U T U R E

[84] Age to get marry: ~28
[85] Number of Kid (s) : 2
[86] Career: Graphic Designer
[87] Salary: Enough for my family n I
[88] Retirement age: 55?
[89] properties value: ...
[90] Wishes: For all my wishes to come true =)


T H E V I C T I M S
QQ
Kree Kree
Apan
Whoever reading this

Hatred !

People can never pleased one another ..
Not even when the both of you are close to each other ..
Each time you are away we always argue ..
I have no idea why but is getting more and more often ..
You can never keep your promises and do what you told me you would before you went back ..
Then later when I make a fuss out of it then you will make so much of noise saying that I am possessive !
What the fuck is wrong with you ?
You were the one not keeping your promises then now you are putting all the fucking blames on me !
Throw all your temper at me like as though I am suppose to get all of it and act like you don't care !
Fuck it !
Don't expect me to tolerate it this time !
Fucking pissed at you !
Fucking idiot !